What does a person do when they get lost? Some eagerly seek their way back to the destination. They will not stop until they find their way back. They resolve to get back on course, they have a will to seek and to find. They are determined not to stop but keep pursuing to the destination.

Others are not as determined. They lose hope rather quickly and remain stagnant. In fear of the possibility of not finding their way back, they are stunned with immobility. They cry and complain and refuse to move. They feel hopeless and full of despair. These will end up remaining in that state of despair, never finding their way back, never moving towards the destination. They will lose their salvation.

We are often contacted by frantic souls that feel they may have lost their salvation. After watching our preachings or teachings some get the sense of urgency to repent and turn from their wicked ways. They desire to return back to God and endeavor to live Holy once and for all.

“Thank you for what you do brother. You helped a lukewarm Christian return to Jesus, to the truth. God bless you and your family.” -Grego

That is a good thing. They hear the call of God to come home, they respond by packing their bags and leaving the enemies camp and returning to the Father. Praise God!

Others hear the call of God to return but they feel they may have gone too far in their sin. Or they may feel that they are not quite ready to return. Either way, they are complacent and refuse to move forward. While contemplating their journey back to the Father, they stay motionless. Time goes by and they are still contemplating their return, often times years later all the while staying motionless.

“Hi Gabe,
I have lost my salvation what can I do now, does it mean I will be going to hell I deserve it I know and after watching your video about losing salvation I broke down and I understand that there is nothing else I can do.”

This man has given up. His language says a lot. Granted, he may be in a moment of shock and despair when God revealed to him his sin but he must get back into motion and endeavor to move forward. If he stays in that state of despair and hopelessness then he will surely die in his sin. He will lose his salvation. “But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.” (Matthew 24:13).

Every man has a soul. The soul is given by God. A soul is grieved when it longs for God’s presence. When the soul is separated from God, it knows it has to return to God. The flesh seeks its own. The flesh wars against the soul of man. “For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.” (Galatians 5:17).

The flesh determines to block the path from soul to God. Hence, the lusts of the flesh which are contrary to the nature of God. As long as one abides in the lusts of the flesh he will remain at a distance from God. When the flesh is resisted then the soul can make its way back to God. The soul seeks harmony with God. There will be no harmony with God if the flesh remains dominant within the man. “As the hart (deer) panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.” (Psalm 42:1).

Here is another example of someone who is at an interesting situation a “crossroads” if you will. He hasn’t fully committed to move forward, although he is contemplating it. He isn’t fully immobile, although he is contemplating that as well. His dilemma is that he is unsure if he has the right to move forward.

“Brother Gabriel, I feel I may have lost my salvation. What do I do now? Is it too late for me?

He questions if it’s “too late” to move forward. I do understand his situation quite well. I myself was in a dark time when living in willful sin. Though things were seemingly well on the outside and I was enjoying my sin, there was something deep in my soul that was grieved and alarmed. My soul knew it wasn’t on good terms with God. My flesh would try and convince my soul that “all was good.” But the fact of the matter is that “all was not good.” I could only mask the inward pain with exterior, temporal pleasures and futile remedies, e.g., alcohol, porn, weed, immoral relations etc. It didn’t work. My soul was still crying out for God. “My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God:…” (Psalm 42:2 KJV).

In my particular situation, I was under the chastisement/wrath of God. It lasted a year and a half. He turned his face from me, in his wrath

“In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer.”– (Isaiah 54:8).

When God turns his face from an individual, the individual is then open to torment. He is open to demonic harassment. The hedge has been taken away and the individual is open to spiritual wickedness in high places. The spiritual wickedness have a boundary they cannot cross. They can afflict, they can torment, but they can’t take the life, unless God allows it. Many times the individual takes his own life (suicide) or submits to the flesh (willful sin) and his life falls under destruction.

The time of God’s wrath is undetermined by man. Only God knows when he will return his Face towards the individual and thereby making his Grace to shine once again upon him.

“The eyes of the LORD are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry.” (Psalm 34:15).

Along with God returning his face to the individual, the soul once again can plead with God and can have his prayers listened to by God. God’s ears will now listen to the petition of the once wayward child of God. Hence, the latter part of Isaiah 54:8: “…but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer.”

If one perceives to be “away” from God, they must examine what location [exactly] they are at.

Are they completely lethargic , without any desire to move forward? Stagnant.

Are they moving forward and have faith to arrive to the destination? Hopeful.

Are they desiring a return to the Father but are unsure if they are allowed? Fearful.

Critical analysis of these diverse scenarios is key to returning to the Father’s abode. If we stay stagnant and unwilling to effort ourselves back into the direction of the Father then we will surely lose our salvation. If we are fearful that God won’t accept us back, then we are under a delusion. God is not willing that any would perish. Move forward my friend.

If you feel there is no hope for you and your demise is finalized, then it just may be, but only God knows. I felt the same way but I put it all out on the line and said, “If God forsakes me for moving forward, then I will at least die trying.” “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.” (Job 13:15).

He rewarded my faith and gave me my life back.

Thank you Jesus~

“But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.” (Hebrews 11:6).

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Quentin Hebert · March 30, 2019 at 10:53 am

Great testimony Gabe, I can relate to God turning his face from me also and it isn’t fun. He actually tried getting get my attention for about 3-4 years and I wouldn’t listen, until about 6 months ago he’s just kind let me have it and it didn’t let up until I forsaked every sin that was in my life, and God still shaping me today. I for real was walking through the valley of the shodow of death because I felt like I was already condemned to hell and it was scary. I guess I got a little appetizer of what being separated from God would be like. He still disciplines me now but it’s not near as severe as it was when it first started happening. God was angry with me and he let me know. For anyone going through this, its hard to keep moving forward but we got to and realize this is punishment for our previous sins and we have to suffer the penalty for not listening when he tried to get our attention the nice way. Thank God and praise Jesus he actually took time out of his day to personally chastise me. Amen

    Gabriel · March 30, 2019 at 12:39 pm

    Thank you for that testimony Quentin. It truly is an eye opening/soul opening experience when one has lived in willful sin and then they come to a “visitation from God.” The Day of his Visitation is quite an alarm. We are stopped dead in our tracks of willful sin only to be faced with the offenses we have committed to God. My alarm came when God revealed to me Hebrews 10:26 which states: “For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins, But a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries”

    I instantaneously saw 13 yrs of willful sin shoved in my face in a trance/vision. The vision lasted less than 10 seconds but it was EXTREMELY vivid. I knew I was guilty and hell bound. The John 3:16 verse that I had believed in and “hung my hat on” as a willful sinner, went out the door. I had no excuse for my sin. God visited me in my sin. Hence, the Day of Visitation.

    Long story short, as I will spare you with one and a half years of heavily supernatural torments and hell on earth I had to experience. Taking my life was a daily temptation and I was oh so close many a times, even to the point of planning it all out in ways. But for many a month I was planted with my face literally to the ground in my backyard. I lay prostate face down eating dust. Tears were like rivers coming down from my face and the wrath of God was in force. It is a chastisement unknown to the common man. But OH… HOW DO THE SCRIPTURES COME ALIVE! The Word of God was slaying me daily. I was the enemy of God. The more I read the scriptures to find solace, the more the Word would slay me. I couldn’t read the bible to find comfort.

    Long story short, again, My God had mercy upon me, I endured his Scourging. He beat the HELL out of me. Literally.
    I thank him for it!


Cassandra · March 30, 2019 at 3:08 pm

Halleluyah! Thanks for this teaching, love listening to you preach, especially when you share your testimonies. May God continue to bless you and keep you dear brother. Shalom

    Gabriel · April 6, 2019 at 9:00 am

    I am encouraged by your words. Keep the faith my friend, till the end!


      Malik Spence · November 2, 2019 at 11:32 pm

      I think I have permanently lost my salvation. No matter what I do, even when I pray, i end up stopping mid prayer and I just have this vision in my head of me in clouds with people I know in my life but I see other people I know in white robes and I’m in basic clothes. I think I lost my salvation or I had the truth but still went back and I fear I cannot change and also that my heart is hardened

        Gabriel · November 3, 2019 at 5:36 am

        I think you are losing your will to be saved, much like the article states. Faith and Hope are somewhat different. Faith believes God has the ability. Hope is constant expectancy.

        You believe God can save but your hope is declining.

        Regain hope.

        Kim · April 23, 2020 at 4:37 pm

        I also feel I lost my salvation..got into sexual sin..holy spirit would convict me and I would say pretty much in my heart I don’t want to hear u right now God..when I finally realized guy wouldn’t commit tried to come back to god..feel my sorrow was only worldly sorrow which the Bible says leads to death…I feel hard towards God..hear blasphemies when I talk to him in my mind..I feel so lost..I feel tormented..feel my willful sin I crucified him a fresh and other scripture in Hebrews about willful sin no more sacrifice for sin..I know we aren’t saved by works..just feel God has hardened my heart towards him..I’m so scared..could someone call me660 620 3759..and has anyone ever heard of someone coming out of this..been stuck this way for about 6months..always felt gods forgiveness but not this time..help please…

          Gabriel · April 24, 2020 at 9:34 am

          Kim thank you for that information. It’s good to know that you are still hanging in there. That is a good thing. As for your lifestyle of sin, I do understand that. It can be debilitating to know that you are in the absence of God. It’s more so his face has turned for you for a season, if you can persevere. “In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer.” Isaiah 54:8.
          The absence of God’s face will allow you to be exposed to the elements(demonic). This is also for a season. I say season because those that persevere through faith will come through. Those that become frail in faith and begin to doubt will not come through. There is a 50% possibility of survival when in God’s wrath. I speak more on this in a video I will leave below. I can go more into this if you emial me. But for now, keep trusting in the Word, even though it may be hard to read as you begin to see His Word is against you. You may feel as though you are an enemy of God at this point. Rest assured, I have been there.

    Kim · December 6, 2019 at 5:50 am

    Could u please call me..I feel my sin has caused God to turn from me…I cry out to him a lot but feel nothing..I feel so dead…my number is 660 3759…no one seems to understand what I’m going through..maybe u will..thank u..kim

Michael · March 31, 2019 at 1:00 am

Love you brother Gabe! Thanks for being a true soldier for the kingdom of Jesus Christ!

    Gabriel · April 6, 2019 at 9:01 am

    By God’s grace we go! Waiting for that Glorious day when our Redeemer shall come and set all things straight and NEW!
    Glory to the Lamb!

Erik Grissom · April 4, 2019 at 9:38 pm

Your videos came up on my YouTube feed and I watched 3 of them so far . I noticed you were in the Bay Area and that piqued my interest . God bless you for walking the walk . Never feel discouraged when you are being harrassed on these leftist atheistic campuses . As you know some will have an honest interest and listen , truly listen . Those campuses really need voices like yours , despite all the raving mockery . Not sure if you caught what one of the officers said when one of those screaming girls asked him “why don’t you arrest him” , this was at diablo college . Well the officer replied “I would if I could” . To me that says a lot . Regardless what the hecklers say Yeshua Christ is the truth and I pray that God leads you to more ears to hear and to more eyes to see . So here’s a little about me . I sell at Bay Area flea markets and Ebay etc the stuff I find in abandoned storage units . Been at this for over a decade now and I have certainly learned a lot . Whether I am selling with partners or by myself I am always bombarded at one instance or another . Every day is a little different but the routine is pretty consistent . I enjoy helping out those who don’t have much by providing items for fractions of the value ( in most cases ) so they have a little more money to spend on feeding there families , lots and lots of hungry people out there . Okay I think I have to go , the dinner bell is about to go off . Email me anytime , take care now .

    Kim · April 23, 2020 at 4:47 pm

    It didn’t get all of my phone no or testimony. 660 620 3759. Please someone who felt lost and tormented due to willful sin but was able to get back to god please call

jay · June 5, 2019 at 9:32 pm

greeting bro, you are truly a blessing, your preaching and writing always sparks introspection. You remind me very much of Apostle Gino Jennings of Philadelphia a man standing boldy for the word challenging all religions and status quo by the power of God, it would be magnificent to see both of you in the same flock. Shalom

Chase Hartzog · January 31, 2020 at 9:49 pm

This is crazy, I grew up with my aunt and uncle because my parents were not able to take care of me. My aunt was seemingly a christian and occasionally took me to church on Sundays, but she never actually taught me about Jesus or what it meant to be a christian. I had idolized soccer as I was very good at it growing up and I had plans to play soccer in college and eventually go pro. When I got to high school, I met a coul kids that introduced me to drugs and I started to try alcohol and weed. Eventually I got caught and I got suspended from my schools soccer team for my entire junior year and my plans to attend college we’re destroyed. This put me into a few depression and I started hanging out with even more kids who introduced me to harder drugs like Xanax. I loved Xanax because it took away the pain I felt from my ruined reputation at school and the deep deep deep scarring from my parents abandoning me. I never had the slightest idea of what it meant to truly be a christian and live for God. So I continued in my sin of drunkenness, gluttony, bad language, lustful thoughts and pornography. One day in the summer of 2018 my “friend” had convinced me to trip acid and so I took the drug. Shortly after, I started to feel like everyone around me knew something I didn’t and it was the scariest thing… I thought that maybe I was surrounded by a gang that wanted to me to become a member. Ironically I had a trip to Michigan planned with another friend the next morning. I could barely think and I could barely move but I went on the trip anyway and these people seemed to be part of the “gang” also. We were in a rented house and they would start saying things that related to my thoughts! I was starting to think they were going to kill me or force me to join a “gang”. They would give me cunning and deceitful looks. At this time, I knew it wasn’t the acid that was making me think these things because the people around me knew my thoughts. At one time I was playing madden with the friend who invited me, and he was acting obnoxious and crazy and he mumbled under his breath “is it because we worship the Devil” I started to think that these people were demons in the flesh so I decided to look up some bible verses. When I started reading bible verses, everything became so real about God. I keep reading verses and tears came to my eyes and I read a particular verse about Gods protection and at last, I felt a supernatural peace and I knew these people would not hurt me. Eventually I got home and managed to stay off weed for 8 days and I even got baptized. But eventually I fell right back into sin and started smoking again and hanging with the same person that made me take acid in the first place. Fast forwarding 7 months, I was still sinning and completely forgot about what had happened because all I knew was getting high and sitting around while I was numb. But all throughout these 7 months I just reasoned with myself that it was a criminal gang and they wouldn’t hurt me because they’d get caught by the police. And then in February if 2019, I was smoking with who I thought was the “gang leader” and while we were smoking, all of the sudden I felt a demonic presence come over me and I started to feel what felt like my soul leaving my body. I started to feel like an ape and this person was attacking me in a different realm. I asked him to leave and I still felt this presence trying to take over my body. It was the scariest thing that’s ever happened at the time. The only thing I could think of doing was opening the Bible, I didn’t know anything about the Bible or what to read so I just opened to a random page and started reading. And of course, God came to the rescue and I started to feel like my body was mine again. Ever since that took place, God revealed to me the complexities of Satans kingdom and he revealed to me that humans worship him and do his work. After that occurred, I stopped smoking completely and actually started to read the Bible. Your videos helped me tremendously and gave me peace. I repented of a lot of sins and I felt my heart changing but I could not seem to stop masterbating and watching porn even though I wasn’t cussing or thinking lustfully anymore. As time went on I was casually reading the word but not really putting effort into God. So I finished my junior year and now I was eligible for the upcoming season in soccer for my school and practices started in June of 2019. After this demonic attack, I started to witness to people on social media and in person and cut ties with all of my old friends. But when the soccer season came around I couldn’t help but play because I felt I needed to earn what I lost the previous year. Ever since I attended the first practice, everything went downhill again and I started to listen to bad music and I got proud because of how well I was playing. I was gradually backsliding and I reconnected with an old friend who had been a professing christian since 1st grade. This so called christian was fornicating and lusting and eventually me and him down slid tremendously and started cussing and looking at girls together. And just recently we got drunk together and I completely turned my back to God after he revealed to me this deep truth about the kingdom of darkness. After a year of sobriety, I recently just smoked weed again and I instantly felt that same demonic presence as before. And now I feel like God is calling me back to him.. I’ve been praying for forgiveness and I’ve been praying that he’ll save my life because I know he has a plan for me. Through the last year, he’s revealed to me that My aunt, uncle, mother, father and brother are all satanist that have manipulated me my entire life. There is a sense of hopelessness in me because I feel that God gave me this sacred knowledge and see truth of the world and I still turned my back on him. But as I read the Bible and pray I feel like he’ll take me back. I just want to get out of this house and away from these people and start my new life in Christ. There’s a spirit of heavy ness in this house and I can’t seem to do anything about it. I also feel so lonely because everyone around me is a servant of satan and It’s hard to trust anyone! God has even also revealed to me that there are so many wolves in sheep’s clothing. I’m graduating in a couple months and I want to go to a college far away from here to start a new life and become a new creature. Watching your videos gives me so much hope because youre proof that there truly is professing Christians In the world. Brother Gabriel, could you please pray for me that God may take me back and guide me to wherever he needs me to go? Please reply, it would be the only real fellowship id ever had. Thank you

Kim · April 23, 2020 at 4:55 pm

It didn’t take all my testimony..anyways could someone please call me who felt they lost salvation but was able to come back to god..I was in willful sin..feel I’m lost..I’m tormented..feel God has turned away from me..but when I was in sexual sin I pretty much told him I don’t want to hear u right now when holy spirit would convict me..been this way for 6months now..please someone call who knows what I’m experiencing..660 620 3759

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